In this chapter, I describe how I deal with sins, but also how I feel a forceful energy entering me, one that strengthens and guides me. However, I have not yet been completely taken over or “anointed”, as this phenomenon is called in Christian circles.

In this chapter I wonder if my life will soon end, because I am warned several times. Will a transformation from caterpillar to butterfly take place on my birthday?

In this chapter I will tell you about a visit I received from two acquaintances having gangster energy, and I will describe how I distract myself with rebuilding my website.

In this chapter I describe how I feel unsafe at the supermarket, how I break my kneecap, how I go back to basics, and how I run into my own limitations.

In this chapter I describe how through social media my work is criticized, and I get to endure scary attacks.

Eventually the ups-and-downs turn into dramatic events, and I am forced to turn even more inward.

In this chapter, I describe some of the many ups and downs I undergo during the time my site has been online.

In this chapter, I describe how my surroundings and I are getting devoured more and more and how my world is getting smaller and smaller.

In this chapter, I describe how I become a target of the Antichrist: how this Antichrist starts to take over people around me.

In this chapter I describe how I, in the years after part-time therapy ended so disastrously, read more and more to find out the truth.