In 2024 I reached the point where, after years of receiving Satan within Antichrist (criticism of taken over people), interspersed with Lucifer within Antichrist (support/encouragement of taken over people), I was now able to tolerate the criticism of taken over people and it no longer crippled me. As I wrote in the previous chapter, these entities gradually tighten the reins, so that you become stronger and more loving each time. What I was already afraid of was now happening: they were slowly starting to apply Antichrist within Antichrist (disapproval of taken over people) treatment to me. I wrote about how difficult everything was at that specific moment and how discouraged I was that I had come face to face with death, cause that’s how it felt. On that specific low point, my heart skipped a beat, at which point I gathered all my strength and forced myself to continue. I wrote how I made peace with the idea that it will all fail. Yet I found new strength by working through my emotions, by getting help of taken over people (Lucifer within Antichrist), but also by distracting me with fun activities. Upon this, I unfortunately got more Antichrist within Antichrist all over me again. First when my taken over family members started criticizing each other, but later also when other taken over people start criticizing me. These entities would always take the process a step further. Every time I lost heart, I was supported on all sides by taken over people. But the process of taking it a step further still continued steadily.
Then I reached the point in which the anger started to focus into my sexuality. An unpleasant place. Texts appeared constantly on Facebook saying that I was gay. It drove me crazy. I was once again plagued by the fear that I must be gay, which I am not, and I suffered from fear of merging with men, which I find terribly disgusting because I have absolutely no romantic attraction to men. My horoscope meanwhile told me that the next day I would meet the love of my life. Then the next day I received a creepy e-mail from a man who knew my latest search term (“soul trap”), which was a bit too coincidental. I had the horoscope in mind and got the idea that he was applying as “the love of my life”, which made me very scared. So I did not respond to him. At night I even had a lifelike rape nightmare about him. He also said in his email that I should not play along this game the Antichrist entities are playing with me, and that I should give up. Then I received an audio message from a victim of ritual abuse who voluntarily gave up her life, she said, and let herself be taken over, which she told me in that audio message. So she too was encouraging me to give up. Then I also saw a YouTube video that indirectly tried to convince me that I should give up. Yet I was not going to be deterred, and I would persevere! Even though I had daily crying sessions.
At a certain point, I was met with even more disapproval, mainly for my angry feelings and my so-called “maladjustment”. This took place in e-mail contact with a woman who responded to my articles, but also in contact with my taken over neighbor. Then there came a time in which I no longer knew what to say and I was no longer able to direct my life energy/sexual energy outward. These fears would resurface time and time again.
Then at Thanksgiving I found out what it’s like when people are not so grateful to you. After 10 years of having put together a church booklet every month for a church in the neighborhood, I said goodbye to these people with sincerely meant words, but I didn’t get any response, which made me angry and I felt like they can go to hell, which I make clear to them with a certain action.
The next day, on the birthday of Chris, my deceased friend, I woke up in shock and it felt like something was entering me. Very strange. A quote appeared on Facebook that said: “I see how hard you have worked. Here is a complementary dino for everything you do 😄” … Have I now been taken over, I thought? But later I realized that it was probably a first warning (Lucifer), which could not hurt. I feel energized and since the Thanksgiving incident I was less concerned about the control of the Antichrist entities that had taken over. Five weeks later I therefore told someone the truth so aggressively that I receive the second warning (Satan), which fortunately could not do any harm either. The warning meant that I had a sleep paralysis attack, during which I was guided through the process of my future death. I felt my heart stop, the blood was pumped out of my body, the computer shut down, then restarted, the blood was pumped back into my body, my heart started beating again and I came back online. I could not move while this was happening, but I did notice that I could breathe. I believed this was the second warning. Next time it would be serious and I would probably really be taken over (by Antichrist energies). This was really upsetting to me. The date from the second warning is as close to Chris’ birthday as it is to my own, so I thought they were going to give me a present on my birthday and it would be my date of dying. Image 7, which I came across on my Facebook timeline, also confirmed these 2 x 5 weeks. It is however no coincidence that it appeared on my timeline!
Image 7
2 x 5 weeks
On my birthday in 2025, I reflected on my life. I truly thought that my birthday would be the end of the story. Of course, I hoped I wouldn’t remain dead forever and that I’d be granted a life like a butterfly emerging from its cocoon (a symbol often used in Christianity to describe this phenomenon), and that a completely foreign entity wouldn’t take over my body instead. That would really suck. So I advised everyone to be on the lookout! In the end, it didn’t come to that, because I had no intention of behaving aggressively anymore. And it’s important to come to terms with these kinds of sins, because they keep you from who you truly are. From that point on, I was no longer afraid of dying. If I were to survive my death and be granted a life as a butterfly, then we could very likely rule out the schizophrenia diagnosis as well, because then I’d see that there was absolutely nothing to be afraid of, and that it might not be a literal takeover, but simply a way to restore my personality and balance. I was desperately hoping for this. But as I said: it didn’t even get that far…
END OF SECTION 2
