I’m not having an easy time at the moment! After a somewhat unpleasant confrontation at my family’s house over the weekend, it feels like I’m being confronted in full with reality. It does make me feel a bit combative, but it seems like I’m up against an unbeatable force. It’s like the whole world is against me, and I can’t handle it. I’m also getting the strangest recommendations on YouTube all of a sudden, which is absolutely no coincedence. It is the universe’s way of taking my daily activities, such as watching YouTube, away from me. This is the ego-destroying power of the Antichrist. I was watching shorts and swiping through videos when suddenly a really disturbing video popped up. It was completely out of place with the rest of the videos. It showed Indonesian people with wounds on their faces (I think they were drawn on), as if the skin had been pulled off their faces. It looked gruesome. And it had a very sinister atmosphere. Bizarre! And this was on YouTube. I got all kinds of strikes on YouTube for videos where I was just talking, when my videos were still online, but those kinds of gruesome content apparently stay online! Disgusting! I reported it immediately. But it confronted me with the fact that there is so much evil in the world, and that I feel so powerless to do anything about it. It reminds me of the situation with my father and my sister. My father repeatedly hitting my sister in the face like a madman, and me standing there in shock, feeling too weak to do anything about it. That’s the story of my life. Will I end up dying in such powerlessness? Horrible! And now, such triggers keep popping up regularly, involving ritual abuse and so on. A former therapy buddy once told me when I was 20 and in therapy that she had been sexually abused by her family, and that they even filmed it. How awful! And that awareness of evil always stayed with me. I kept in touch with her for a long time after therapy, but in the end she started to behave strangely, when she was probably taken over. It was always giving, giving, giving on my part, and she, on the other hand, gave just enough to keep my interest. In the end, she removed me from Facebook when we had a disagreement in which I wanted to expose her hypocrisy. She didn’t even let me explain and saw me as the bad guy. All I had to do was stop giving and then it was end of contact, that was the feeling she gave me in those last years. Even though she was such a sweet but vulnerable girl when I first met her. But I always remembered her story because I couldn’t imagine anyone going through that.
When I got that strange recommendation on YouTube, I was suddenly transported back to that feeling of powerlessness. The powerlessness of children being hurt, and me standing by, frozen, unable to do anything about it. The result is intense sadness. Then another recommendation came up from a YouTuber asking PVV (Party for Freedom) MPs here in the Netherlands why they voted against an independent investigation into ritual abuse. Because the group of abused people does not agree with the investigation carried out by the Ministry of Justice a few years ago, because they say that the Ministry of Justice itself is involved. So the emphasis in the new FVD (Forum for Democracy) motion was placed on ‘independent investigation’. Geert Wilders ordered the entire PVV faction to vote against it at the last minute, whereas the original intention was for everyone to vote in favor. When it became apparent that they would have a majority with the other parties, they suddenly changed their minds. A lot of people speculate in the comments on that video that the PVV has something to hide, especially Geert Wilders. Someone also links to a witness statement from a man named Lars Roumen, who says that he was raped by Geert Wilders as a child in the south of France. And that they nailed children to crosses with a lot of fire around them. Social workers don’t take him seriously and say he’s schizophrenic. Yeah, right, all so called ‘schizophrenics’ tell the same things, remember that! It’s just because these social workers don’t want to face the harsh truth. And furthermore, there are also lots of people taken over among social workers, who discredit the truth and influence their fellow human beings. The average person who is awake however, does believe him. And I am also inclined to believe such things. We have already seen various statements from people who say that the elite are involved in murders, manhunts, and who knows what other terrible shit. And I have also regularly speculated on this site about what is true here. (See also the chapter Satanic ritual abuse from Section 3 of my story).
But the evil you face then becomes enormous. And if people are silenced by taking them over, then the evil is even worse than most people think. Then I can probably throw my recent speculations in the trash. That the takeovers that are taking place are just a renewal of personality, and that it’s nothing to be afraid of… Well, it’s a comforting thought, but what if it’s not true? Then I suddenly feel like little Jesse, facing the whole world. The evil and the conspiracy then become so enormous that you collapse just imagining it. I don’t want to think about it, but I can’t help it getting bigger and more real. And that I can cling less and less to the comforting thoughts. It’s horrible!
In what kind of world are we living, that vulnerable people (including children) are faced with such an enormous evil conspiracy…?!
