A lot has happened again! The visions I have with colored flashes, which let me know where my sins and blockages are with the color of the corresponding chakra, continued steadily over the past few months. Every time I was being myself, it was apparently a mistake in the area of the red or orange chakra, the two bottom chakra’s. And once again, I felt like I was being tossed back and forth like a play toy. Each time, a piece of me was rejected. And each time, I did my best to behave extra well. After controlling myself in every way, i.e., not getting angry and not watching porn, which I succeeded in for 5 weeks, I had a relapse yesterday. I no longer allowed myself to be put in an artificial prison. Only it didn’t feel right, because now I was aware that I was going against God’s Will. Nevertheless, immediately this video popped up on YouTube that rewarded me. “God is so proud of you!”. Weird. but it was a comforting video I didn´t expect. I felt very bad about myself, but it was a necessary step in my development to relapse, and God knew it! Sometimes I take two steps forward, sometimes one step back, sometimes one forward, and sometimes two steps back. Overall, I can still say that there is an upward trend. Unfortunately, however, the way I feel is getting worse and worse. It is no coincidence that such a comforting video popped up immediately. Because the reality as it presents itself in these End Times, has a direct connection to everyone’s spirit. This is the intelligence of the universe in action. And this is how God communicates with you. However, most people have defenses and suppression in place that prevent them from noticing this. They attribute everything to coincidence. Not just for that one time it happens, but for dozens of times it happens. Which is of course ridiculous.
Later that evening, I came across the YouTube channel of a female writer who very honestly shares her stories with her readers in all kinds of areas. I drifted off into a dream. I thought she was a attractive woman, and I had a quiet desire to connect with someone like her, but in my current state, it would always remain a dream because of my awkward and damaged personality. At one point, she shared her grief about a failed relationship, and that immediately triggered grief in me. As if I were a baby again, hearing my twin sister cry and immediately starting to cry myself. Or like a slightly older boy, who knows that he makes his mother sad when he is himself. Or me as a father who cares for his daughter like a real father and wants to see her happy, but knows that he is falling short. Anything but a normal, healthy love relationship between two adults. So this triggered a lot of grief again. About everything that is, everything that isn’t, and everything that could have been…
But I would not be left alone, because that evening I fell asleep on the couch. And I had a bad dream in which I was literally chasing people on bicycles who I heared sharing exactly among themselves the things I wanted to tell them at that moment. ?? How did they have this foreknowledge? I confronted them. I accused them of being Dragons, and the atmosphere became grim. One tenet of Dragonhood is that you give your aggression free rein inside yourself. We were once encouraged to do this at the clinical therapy, even though they didn’t share this hidden meaning with you, and their hidden ties with the evil forces, that are used by God. Some people are taken over by these Dragons, who often have memories of previous lives, and therefore need their aggression to be able to take over someone, otherwise the transitions from one body to another would be too intense and evoke too many emotions. People can also become Dragons if they embrace their aggression. It catalyzes (accelerates) your development tremendously in a short period of time. which is actually the goal of these Dragons. And that is what I obediently shared with one of those Dragons in that dream, who wondered why I no longer shared that. He asked if I had a website, and I gave him the address. At which point the atmosphere became even grimmer, and he began to threaten me, which irritated me and I rejected him with an apt amount of aggression. Then something strange happened again: just like last year, it was as if something came into me, or something was taken out of me, one of the two. And I woke up with a bad feeling. But I wasn’t afraid this time. I knew from last year that it would probably happen again in five weeks. Because that’s the pattern I seem to follow every year (see my chapter Is this the end? from Section 2 of my story). Perhaps I will then probably be guided again through the process of takeover by means of a sleep paralysis attack, as I describe in my article Final Warning, which can’t really do any harm either. I hope I for once can put it behind me for good, but who knows, it might come back every year, I don’t know. Once again, I have to trust the process. But I still have no final conclusion about what the phenomenon actually is. Whether it’s really Dragons taking over, or whether that’s false information, and whether it’s actually more like being unlocked in your spirit, for example, and getting back everything you’ve lost due to premature disapproval you faced in your life. The question is whether it is still you who is being unlocked in that case, or whether you are taken over by a completely different entity. I usually hope that it is just a reset, because I still have so many unfulfilled wishes for my life, but I am not at all sure.
Those 2x5 weeks are almost over again! And I don’t intend to fall back into old habits. I saw another flash this week, but I was still too asleep to see the color. So I asked God if he could repeat it, so I could be sure of the color. And sure enough, I fell asleep again and woke up startled with another flash, and this time I saw the color very clearly: red. Thank you, God. And then I thought back to a moment when I jumped out of my skin the day before. I sincerely hope that I can control it more and more. I don’t watch porn anymore either. It feels worthless and I’m no longer interested in it, although I still anxiously and compulsively test everyone I see on whether I feel groinal responses, which I have done my whole adolescense but has unfortunately returned. I wish intensely that I could get rid of this. It feels horrible. Cause I tend to feel something when I am annoyed or angry, and it’s often against my will. You don’t want it with random people and it’s different from real sexuality, which I haven´t felt for a long time. Furthermore, it feels as if I am constantly being shaken up and beaten now. And with the aggression that this evokes, I do make contact, but it is completely suppressed. The trauma pushes it down, deep into my body. While you actually need that part to succesfully purify yourself. This is the greatest paradox! Not being able to feel this aggression, is a prison of the worst kind. I long to be freed from this oppressive state, but it remains to be seen whether it will ever resolve.
Pentecost (this year on the 24th of May) is probably one date for a Second Harvest. It’s the Jewish Shavuot (Feast of Weeks), when people who have cleansed themselves of their bad behavior in life will be harvested. I can really relate to that, even though there is still plenty of room to improve myself. Here I share again the same article that I shared earlier in my article Once again a first warning. At that time, I speculated whether the pagan Second Harvest was maybe the date on which those who have cleansed themselves are harvested, and that the Jewish dates are then the Satanic harvests. Exactly the opposite of what people tend to think. But perhaps it is true that the Jewish dates are still the correct ones, and the pagan ones are the Satanic ones. In any case, Pentecost is another date to look forward to in all my despair. Because I live day by day!
Finally, I would like to wish everyone all the best for the new year and take a moment to think about all the people who are struggling, whether they have been taken over or not. There are also people who have been taken over/reset and who are having a hard time. Some lose their entire family to cancer for example, while others die spontaneously from a “heart attack”. We are going to see a lot more of this in the coming period. Because taking over or resetting is the first step of the Antichrist entities, but the second step is often physical death. If you care about your family and friends, but also about yourself, then make a move outward and start producing works to counterbalance this Antichrist force. The requirements are not high, as long as you do something. I can assure you that it is very effective and that you will really be listened to. Maybe not by your fellow human beings, but certainly by God Himself.
